Strangers in the Same House

We are strangers in the same house.

Some mornings I wake and you are still my spouse.

That dream soon fades to the reality in my head.

The sheets are now dusty on your side of the bed.

I first loved you in a garden on a beautiful sunny day.

And though you loved me deeply once your feelings have since waned.

Captured moments in time still align these walls in frames.

Where our love once bloomed brightly now only grief remains.

Each day more tears adorn my sleeve,

But I know I’ll never leave.

Our memories are my chains.

Every time I try to go nostalgia pulls my reins.

Once upon a time you made my heart flutter.

The chills from your touch now make me shudder.

Every time you visit it turns ice cold in this room.

This entire house is now a place of silent gloom.

People say I should move on but I know I never will.

Despite the realm between us my heart beats for you still.

A new love would not bring me any consolation.

I much prefer this new life of gut wrenching isolation.

Our approaching anniversary is a time I deeply dread.

For I still breathe the air and you, my love, are dead.

You made a vow to me and then you left me far too soon.

And now I’m left to my despair in this lonely, little room.

© Brandy Lindsey

Do not try to take credit for the successes of an adult child you had no part in raising.  Being 50% of someone's DNA does not equate to good parenting.

Psychiatry is a Joke

Psychiatry is yet another way the elite manages to yield control over the masses by isolating anyone who deviates even slightly from what they deem to be normal behavior, labeling them according to whatever label they find suitable from their Holy Bible, the DSM-5, and plying them with pills to make them think and behave in a way that society deems acceptable. 

Bone Rhapsody

Solar Eclipse 2017

The Price of Admission

People

99.9% of the people one encounters in their lifetime are fake.  They put on a pretense so that the people they encounter will like them.  Many base their life’s worth on educational credentials, when to be quite honest from what little I’ve read of the holy book that all sanctimonious pricks reference when they are trying to win an argument aren’t you judged based on character and not academic credit to get admitted into those sacred pearly gates?  So many out there that make their racist comments and jokes and then pretend as if they think racism is just horrid and they really aren’t a racist themselves.  Why, they themselves listen to Beyoncé.  That proves they couldn’t be a racist, right?  It’s always other people, isn’t it?  When someone is a bit strange or eccentric we take comfort in judging them and assuming they are just drug addicts, when in reality nothing could be further from the truth.  Some base a person’s worth on holes in their socks or streaks of color in their hair instead of their actual character, and then that judgmental person wonders why karma never seems to work out for them in the end.  These same assholes contribute to a culture that always finds some way to blame the victim no matter what the circumstance.  If she’s raped and murdered and just happens to be of a lower socioeconomic class than the asshole that thought she was disposable, society will fight to the death to get his good name cleared.  If a man or child shot down in cold blood just happens to not be as white as snow, then it’s looked at as more of an oops than an actual crime.  These same people take antidepressants and whatever else they can get a doctor to ply them with to alter enough chemicals in their brain to convince them they are happy, but in reality they just make them numb and able to tolerate their miserable existence.  People choose to ply themselves with anything they can to drown out their sorrows, be it trying to forget why exactly no one loves them when they make no attempt to be any less of a blight on society than they already are, or for a reason so mundane as to try to get over the fact that they were born to shitty parents.  Sometimes you are just born into a shit life, and you can either choose to get over it or spend the rest of your life whining about it to people pretending to give a shit.  The circumstances you were born into do not have to define you for the rest of your life.  The only person you can ever truly rely on is always the reflection staring back at you in your own mirror.  

Denial only gets you so far in life.

Reality eventually finds its way back in.

Tears are a waste of time and a sign of weakness.

Sometimes God has simply chosen to leave the room.

Dominion

They come to lay dominion at my feet with admiration in their eyes.

Though acknowledgement I may give feelings I don’t have.

My heart turned to stone long ago,

The blood flowing through my veins is nothing but dark acid.

Go ahead, sing your hymns.

The lyrics fall upon deaf ears.

Why fear what the future holds when you’re already dead?

Awakening

Turmoil

Hope that a new day will bring joy passed long ago.

Dreams are simply just painful reprisals of memories best left dead.

As the nights yield a perpetual hell of unending sadness,

She arises to yet another day filled with the same apathy.

As the days grow longer her heart grows colder.

She is her own alpha and omega.

She is the darkness and the light.